Let me tell you a secret.
Close the doors.
Pull down the shades.
Turn off the sound on the computer.
Okay…phew! ;) I feel better. That is such a relief to be able to confess to you. And if you said this out loud with me it would be even better because misery loves company.
Some may think that confessing your sin to someone other than the Lord is ridiculous or just a way for the church to “control” you. Why not just confess your sin(s) to God directly? To which I say – “I do!” and I did. (I think God is one of my followers – I know I follow Him, I just don’t read “every” blog, sorry God – another confession!) So let me try to give you my point of view on this.
I always thought I could handle it, I’m a man, I’m an old fart, I can correct my sins and turn it around. (insert chuckle here)
I am not the first one to think this way, nor are you. Remember Adam and Eve in the garden, they had it made – they had hit the jackpot. ( I wonder where we all would be if Adam and Eve would of said “No thanks we’re good!” ) Well they thought they could handle it on their own and they didn’t need someone else to tell them what they could and could not do! (dang it “free will”). This is what Satan does to us, scatters our thoughts, makes us think we are better off doing it ourselves. After all don’t you feel good when you buy that new bookshelf at Target, open the box and follow the instructions and “Shazzam!” it’s done and you do not have any parts left over! I know I feel good – “I” did it! Well yes and no, did you catch what I did? I followed the instructions (these had pictures!!). Mmmm. Simple.
Why do we complicate things? God spoke to Adam and Eve with instructions of how to live in the garden. Satan took a big red crayon to those and scribbled all over them to confuse us! So then God spoke to Noah and gave him a set of instructions to build an ark – it worked! Then Satan came along and kicked our ball away and we were confused once more. Along came Elijah and Moses – they mostly followed but since they did not it fell apart. Then along came Mary.
Who better to give us instructions (be it with words and examples) than God himself, Jesus (Father, Son and Holy Spirit). He not only lived liked us so that He could sympathize with our struggles, but He could also heal us right on the spot if He so choose. But more importantly by selecting 12 men to be with Him 24/7, He taught them not only by words but by deeds and He taught them privately as well (Mark 4:33-34). The most effective way to teach anyone is by example.
I will assume at this point you know a little bit about Jesus’ life (If you do not please say so and I will do a follow-up post). So when Jesus arose from the grave and appeared to the 12 apostles;
Gospel of John 20:19 On the evening of that day, the first day of the week, the doors being shut where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.” 20 When he had said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples were glad when they saw the Lord. 21 Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, even so I send you.” 22 And when he had said this, he breathed on them, and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. 23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”
The apostles received the gifts of the Holy Spirit from Jesus himself. And in James 5:15-17 we are told to confess our sins to one another.
Have you ever gone to apologize for an error of words or acts that you did? It is difficult and causes a big lump in your throat or stomach. It’s easy when you say it to yourself in the mirror or in a room by yourself, but put another person in front of you it is not so easy. When you confess to a priest it can sometimes be difficult because he is representing Jesus, our Lord and God. The priest has professed to do his best to imitate Jesus and walk in His footsteps and be a living example for us.
Reconcile with God; open your heart and reach out for God’s forgiving, loving mercy.
I believe in one God
You can believe in apple pie and fourth of July. You can believe in sunrises and sunsets. You can believe in the air you breath is good for you or the water you drink.
We all desire to know more than we know. And I find myself pulled in many directions at times wanting to know how things are done, even getting in there and getting dirty. Kinda my own little version of “Dirty Jobs”.
The desire for God is written in the human heart, because man is created by God and for God; and God never ceases to draw man to himself. Only in God will he find the truth and happiness he never stops searching for. ccc 27
So when we find ourselves seeking something, seeking a guiding light, a yearning to learn about something, maybe it’s God who is calling us in.
mmm….a day late….
Why did Jesus go into the desert to pray for 40 days and nights? That is one question I hope that I get to ask. We learn that He was tempted three times and each time He refused to give in to temptation.
Lent is to symbolically represent these 40 days and nights that Jesus spent in the desert, alone, praying and fighting off temptation. We sometimes feel like we are alone, in a desert, fighting off temptation. However it is much harder for us, since we are not 100% divine and 100% human. We seek 1% divinity and let God determine our fate.
So as we wander into this desert, let us reflect on how we can improve on what we have done in the past. As the saying goes “fool me once, shame on you – fool me twice, shame on me”
I found the love of my life when I was seventeen. It’s kinda of funny, I mean, who would of thought that? Not me. But I can honestly say (why do we say that? “honestly say?” do we assume you/me are dishonest from the get-go or is it that we assume you are honest until found out that you are not? Maybe I should ask a politician) that I dreamt that she was the one from the first kiss, yes really, THE one. And as it has turned out these short 35 years that we have been together (29 married) that, in short, I am one lucky dog!!
This first half of life has gone by pretty quickly, and I mean that at times the clock did stand still at few points in my life. Do you remember Andy Warhol’s famous quote “everyone has fifteen minutes of fame” or something like that, and it depends on what you call “fame”.
My “fame” is that I did marry the ONE that I wanted and with any “luck” I am hers as well (if I may quote St. Joan of Arc “If I am in the grace of God, I pray that I stay there, if not I pray that I might”). I am a firm believer that it not only takes divine intervention for a couple to come together, but the almighty God above is also involved throughout your whole life, dating and marriage.
So I raise my glass to us “Lucky Dogs!” you know if you are one. May we continue to be in this state of grace of “Luck” and be forever blessed!!
Funny thing happened to me on my way to converting to catholicism…….I fell in love with another woman!!
Mary, the mother of Jesus, Jesus the Son of God, Mary the mother of God. When did Jesus become God or when did God become Jesus? It’s like the question of which came first the chicken or the egg? When Gabriel appeared to Mary, he said “Do not be afraid!” Now if an angel appeared to you would you not be afraid? I am sure that I would or I would ask myself did I have 3 beers or 30? I forgot.
So why is the Church so in love with Mary? Well my question to you is why not? Who else gave birth to our savior? No one!! Only one! Mary!!!Okay, Okay….calm down ( I am talking to myself right now!) How did this happen and why is the catholic church so reverent towards Mary? Well let me ask a simple question, if the angel Gabriel appeared to you, would you say “Behold I am the handmaid of the Lord, May it be done to me according to your word” (Luke 1:38)……………..me neither.
So why do we adore or reverence Mary so much? Well who constantly reminds us of Jesus? His mother, Mary. Even the time when they (Mary and Joseph) lost Jesus. Remember they went to the temple to worship and when they returned home Mary turned to Joseph and said “Where is Jesus?” (paraphrased) and us fathers can understand Joseph’s confusion of – who? And when they found Him (three days later), Mary asks “Son, why have you done this to us?”
Mary, acknowledges that Jesus is her Son, the only one. She knew this from the get-go. Once she acknowledged Gabriel and said “Yes”, she knew she would have a Son and His name would be Jesus! She had to let Jesus be Jesus. Her will to let God come into her life and actually be a part of her is the most selfless act a person could ever do. Her love of God and desire to be close to Him manifested inside her from the beginning as well. Mary had the hunger for God from her beginning as well, praying, learning and seeking God.
And to cut to the chase, it was Mary ‘s last words who said to the servants at the wedding in Cana “Do whatever He tells you” (John 2:5)
And, usually your mother is right, right? Honor His mother and “Do whatever He tells you!”
We pray for Mary’s intercession and ask her to pray with us and for us;
Have you ever been in you car and “that” song comes over the radio, you know, the one you can’t help but belt out in your best and loudest voice, mixed in with the hand jesters that you hope no one sees, but they do and quickly change lanes.
This can happen at any moment of time. When someone asks a question or makes a remark it seems to me that I quickly relate that to a song. Why is this? well it’s because, and this has to be God’s way of talking to us, we remember those musical lyrics, And God has a plan for us, which I believe is going to be with a “clashing of cymbals” (Psalms 150) we will be celebrating His return!!!
One of my favorite songs is “How Great thou Art” and probably it is because it is my mother’s favorite song (God Bless you Mom!!). Another one is my wife’s favorite song “Taste and See”, both of these songs bring out my best, out of tune voice, to belt as loud as I can, out of tune of course.
In fact the mass has many memorable songs throughout. At times I feel that our musical director’s goal is to sing every song listed in the hymnal! And depending upon which time you attend the music will vary from very old tunes to the newest ones that you hear on your favorite christian radio station. The most current on that I enjoy now is Matt Maher’s “Lord, I need You!!“
Music does that, it’s brings us close to other which in turn brings us closer to God! So keep the beat and sing out loud in the shower, car or even in church!!!
Fear the wrath of God!!!! That sounds old fashion doesn’t it? The last time I heard about the fear of God was when Charles Heston was holding two tablets in his hands, the wind blowing his ZZ Top inspired beard, to the golden cow groupies at the bottom of the mountain.
I grew up not fearing God, really. We were always taught about the love of God. For instance in Vacation Bible School we always sang “Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world” ….. (caught ya singing the rest!). So the “fear of God” has never really entered my mind, until recently.
When Katrina hit New Orleans we heard from Pat Robertson which he said that was God’s punishment for that life style in New Orleans (note, my interpretation). Not only did Pat Robertson declare this, even some Jewish leaders said God was mad at America. Does God get mad? really?
But why do we fear God? Does God really punish us?
Why, if we believe that God is ever merciful, every forgiving and loving, would we believe that God could punish us? So we believe that God is almighty, all-knowing and all that is, was and ever will be. We pray “Glory be to the Father, Son and Holy Spirit as it was in the beginning is now and ever will be a world without end, AMEN!”
So WHY do we fear God?
I don’t fear God, I fear me. I mean I fear that I will fail the faith that God has placed in me. It is that God will not punish me, I will punish me. How is that you ask, well God gives each one of us “free will” to do as we please. So where, with that free will, does that leave room for God to punish me? yeah – no God doesn’t, I do. I failed. And what is the worse feeling? Knowing I failed God or that I failed me? Well, for me, that I failed God. I let Him down. I did not live up to His expectations. We face this type of stress in our daily lives right? Our spouse expects us to help out, communicate, love, laugh and share our life with them. Our children expect the same but also food, clothing and shelter. Our community expects us to volunteer unlimited hours to help out in keeping everything clean and organized. Our church If we believe (and I do) that God placed each of us here on purpose to seek a purpose with our own free will then He is unlikely to punish us. In the Old Testament we read where God seemed to get fed up with the Israelites. The Israelites kept breaking there covenant with God, notice that God did not break the covenant, man did.
By giving us free will, God allows us to screw things up for ourselves. Remember when you were learning to ride your bike and your Dad was right there at first, guarding you from falling, but then he let you go! “I got it Dad!! I got it, I got it……I don’t got it!!! ” BOOM ! CRASH ! OUCH!! – “why did you let go?!” This is how we think of God in times of trouble – why did you let go? And we become afraid of God because He let’s bad things happen or will cause them to happen.
God did not create us for us to “Fear” Him, but rather He created us to Love Him!!
So to quote from FDR “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself” Let’s rephrase that to “the only thing we have to fear is…OURSELF!”
Is every thought we have a prayerful thought? Think a moment about that, take a deep breath – are you thinking a prayerful thought.
I pray that every thought is a prayerful thought. I compare it to listening to jazz music. How’s that you ask. Well jazz has a foundation like most music, but it also appears to have a lot of freedom of movement so you don’t always know what is coming. In the church we have prayers that are well written and thoughtful, in fact Jesus taught us the perfect prayer, the Lord’s Prayer or the Our Father ( I always like to refer to as the “Art Father”). But we also have the freedom to make our own prayer or cry out our prayer with no set pattern. Most cradle catholics may not realize this freedom that they have or maybe they were never taught about it.
Our prayers can and should follow our thoughts. We think at a very high rate of speed. At times I have a hard time following my own thoughts let alone my dearest wife’s thoughts at times. Like beautiful music our prayers and prayerful thoughts will take to a beautiful beat of its own and suddenly we will be praying or thinking beautiful thoughts at a high rate only to slow down, collect ourselves and say “Thanks be to God”.
We should remember that every thought IS a prayerful thought and every prayer to God – counts!!